Welcome! This is my Slam Library
First of all, let me explain what slam poetry is in case you're confused....it's okay, I was puzzled myself when I discovered it. This is the urban dictionary definition; A type of poetry expressing a persons personal story and/or struggle usually in an intensely emotional style. Very powerful, sincere, and moving. My personal definition would be; An informal style of poetry where the author creates there own rhythm by using their personal thoughts and emotions in a spoken word performance. Blah blah blah... Anyway, the best way to learn about slam is to watch someone perform it.
Who Am I?
By Nicole L. Lawrence
Who am I?
The eater of the fruit even though it was forbidden
I was ashamed of myself and remained hidden
Even when you called to me.
Who am I?
The killer of my brother.
Who am I?
I am the one who slept with another
And now the father of a son
Whose mother is not my wife.
Who am I?
The one with long locks came too much pride
She was my weakness, and I let her push you aside.
Who am I?
Your chosen people, who in Egypt were slaves
Then you set us free, but in spite of everything you gave
Still worshiped other gods.
Who am I?
The ruler of your nation
I had an infatuation with another man’s wife
Then covered it up by taking his life.
Who am I?
A prophet going where you lead
Until you said Nineveh, then I fled
And you were ignored, but you sent a storm
And I was tossed over board.
Who am I?
I am the greedy rich soul
who fed Lazarus crumbs
While I was full.
I am a seed the farmer will sow
But I’m choked by thorns
And never will grow.
Who am I?
A leper, crying out “unclean”
To society I’m unwanted
Better not touched, not seen.
Who am I?
His neighbor, “Love him” is what you said
But when he’s dying by the road
I let a Samaritan help instead.
Who am I?
Righteous, everyone can see as I pass
But I only clean the outside,
Never the inside of my glass.
Who am I?
A follower, one of the Twelve and your friend
But I traded it with a kiss just for some money I could spend.
Who am I?
A coward weeping by the fire’s glow
Even when you warned
Three times before the rooster crows.
This is who I am.
I am the scum of the earth
Since the day of my birth
I was destined to be…this.
Yes, just this.
A problem with no solution
A story with a tragic conclusion
An obstacle to get around
Lost and never found
A dead end trial
Sold for 90% off at the sale
An overhead cloud of doom
Taking up too much room
A no-good, misunderstood freak
Who is nothing but weak
Reeks of grime
A waste of time.
This is who I am!
Useless
Careless
Meaningless
Helpless
Yes, check all of the above.
Who am I?
I am the one who rejoiced “Hosanna in the Highest”
And with the same lips cried out “ Crucify him!”
I am the one spitting as you struggle by.
I am laughing as you cry out in pain.
I placed the crown of thorns on your head.
I am the one pushing the nails into your hands and feet.
This is who I am.
I am the least.
Yes, less than the rest.
Regardless, you say I’m blessed
Because who I am doesn’t compare to you.
Who are you?
King of the Heavens but to this world a stranger
Who humbly came down to be born in a manger.
You did not come to serve, but to serve instead
A teacher with authority in every word you said.
Many asked, “Who are you?”
Who is this man turning water to wine
Giving sight to the blind
Caring for widows, and tax collector’s friend
Casting out comfort to be a fisher of men.
Who are you?
The Messiah
Fully human, fully God.
Persecuted by many proclaiming you a fraud.
You, with feet washed in repenting tears
Made leaders of the land coward with fears.
Who are you?
Innocent.
When asked, “what crime?”
None could reply
But you were charged with every sin
And sentenced to be crucified.
Who are you?
King of the Jews
As you took your final breath
Crying out “Lord I commit my spirit.”
At that moment the curtain was torn
Your people mourned
As darkness covered to land.
For shedding to blood of an innocent man.
Hope had hit a dead end
As heartbroken friends
Came to tend to a corpse.
But instead what they found
Would astound them
And all generations forevermore.
I had only been three days
The stone was rolled away
As they heard a triumphant voice say,
“Why are you looking for the living among the dead?
He ‘s not here. He is risen!”
Who are you?
You are risen!
The grave is not where this story ends.
No! That’s just where is begins
Because death has lost and Love wins.
We were like sheep being lead to the slaughter
But you said take me, not my sons and daughters.
I was shame, you are forgiveness.
I was guilty, you are grace.
I was lost, you are the Way.
I was afraid, you are Love.
I was dead, you are Alive.
Who am I?
Who I am no longer matters.
What is important now is who’s am I?
I am Yours.
Yes, you rose to come for me
You saw my chains of sin
And fought to set me free.
You ignore my failure and seek my potential
Because your plans for me are much more essential.
Your wounded body has healed my soul
It washed away the scars, and made me beautiful.
Who am I?
I am Yours.
By Nicole L. Lawrence
Who am I?
The eater of the fruit even though it was forbidden
I was ashamed of myself and remained hidden
Even when you called to me.
Who am I?
The killer of my brother.
Who am I?
I am the one who slept with another
And now the father of a son
Whose mother is not my wife.
Who am I?
The one with long locks came too much pride
She was my weakness, and I let her push you aside.
Who am I?
Your chosen people, who in Egypt were slaves
Then you set us free, but in spite of everything you gave
Still worshiped other gods.
Who am I?
The ruler of your nation
I had an infatuation with another man’s wife
Then covered it up by taking his life.
Who am I?
A prophet going where you lead
Until you said Nineveh, then I fled
And you were ignored, but you sent a storm
And I was tossed over board.
Who am I?
I am the greedy rich soul
who fed Lazarus crumbs
While I was full.
I am a seed the farmer will sow
But I’m choked by thorns
And never will grow.
Who am I?
A leper, crying out “unclean”
To society I’m unwanted
Better not touched, not seen.
Who am I?
His neighbor, “Love him” is what you said
But when he’s dying by the road
I let a Samaritan help instead.
Who am I?
Righteous, everyone can see as I pass
But I only clean the outside,
Never the inside of my glass.
Who am I?
A follower, one of the Twelve and your friend
But I traded it with a kiss just for some money I could spend.
Who am I?
A coward weeping by the fire’s glow
Even when you warned
Three times before the rooster crows.
This is who I am.
I am the scum of the earth
Since the day of my birth
I was destined to be…this.
Yes, just this.
A problem with no solution
A story with a tragic conclusion
An obstacle to get around
Lost and never found
A dead end trial
Sold for 90% off at the sale
An overhead cloud of doom
Taking up too much room
A no-good, misunderstood freak
Who is nothing but weak
Reeks of grime
A waste of time.
This is who I am!
Useless
Careless
Meaningless
Helpless
Yes, check all of the above.
Who am I?
I am the one who rejoiced “Hosanna in the Highest”
And with the same lips cried out “ Crucify him!”
I am the one spitting as you struggle by.
I am laughing as you cry out in pain.
I placed the crown of thorns on your head.
I am the one pushing the nails into your hands and feet.
This is who I am.
I am the least.
Yes, less than the rest.
Regardless, you say I’m blessed
Because who I am doesn’t compare to you.
Who are you?
King of the Heavens but to this world a stranger
Who humbly came down to be born in a manger.
You did not come to serve, but to serve instead
A teacher with authority in every word you said.
Many asked, “Who are you?”
Who is this man turning water to wine
Giving sight to the blind
Caring for widows, and tax collector’s friend
Casting out comfort to be a fisher of men.
Who are you?
The Messiah
Fully human, fully God.
Persecuted by many proclaiming you a fraud.
You, with feet washed in repenting tears
Made leaders of the land coward with fears.
Who are you?
Innocent.
When asked, “what crime?”
None could reply
But you were charged with every sin
And sentenced to be crucified.
Who are you?
King of the Jews
As you took your final breath
Crying out “Lord I commit my spirit.”
At that moment the curtain was torn
Your people mourned
As darkness covered to land.
For shedding to blood of an innocent man.
Hope had hit a dead end
As heartbroken friends
Came to tend to a corpse.
But instead what they found
Would astound them
And all generations forevermore.
I had only been three days
The stone was rolled away
As they heard a triumphant voice say,
“Why are you looking for the living among the dead?
He ‘s not here. He is risen!”
Who are you?
You are risen!
The grave is not where this story ends.
No! That’s just where is begins
Because death has lost and Love wins.
We were like sheep being lead to the slaughter
But you said take me, not my sons and daughters.
I was shame, you are forgiveness.
I was guilty, you are grace.
I was lost, you are the Way.
I was afraid, you are Love.
I was dead, you are Alive.
Who am I?
Who I am no longer matters.
What is important now is who’s am I?
I am Yours.
Yes, you rose to come for me
You saw my chains of sin
And fought to set me free.
You ignore my failure and seek my potential
Because your plans for me are much more essential.
Your wounded body has healed my soul
It washed away the scars, and made me beautiful.
Who am I?
I am Yours.
Ode to Single-hood
By Nicole L. Lawrence
The other day I was talking to my best friend
and she seriously sounded just like this.
OMG! My life is over
My world has come to an end
I have to start all over
Because I’m single again!
Wow!
Okay you’ve all been there
And to be fair, I have too
We’ve all learned breaking up
Isn’t easy to do
It’s takes time
And gallons of ice cream
To get through
But we’ve also learned
Being single isn’t the end
So why should I depend
On a relationship status
To determine my value
Who are you to decide
Since I there’s no man by my side
Like the opportunity is now or never
And if I don’t take my chance
I’ll be alone forever
And you think you’re so clever
With your snarky comments like
“You know, cats aren’t so bad.”
No! What’s not so bad is being single
I’m not going to christianmingle.com
Like it’s my last shot
I may be single
But desperate, I’m not
And I know this thought
Is likely mind blowing
But maybe we’re going
About relationship the wrong way
Because today the attitude is
Take what you can get
And forget about playing hard to get
Cause well that’s just too, hard
Nah, today everything is such an ease
You just strut and do a little tease
And by the end of the night
He’ll be down on his knees
Yeah, being hit on by some guy who’s sleazy
And uses a cheesy pick-up line
That is where I draw the line
I’m sorry my life doesn’t reflect Jersey Shore
But I’ve come to believe there’s got to be more
Seriously, there’s got to be more
Than to please that sleaze
I show off my goodies
When the next he’s just going to forget my name
Like winning his affection is some kind of game
No thank you, I refuse to be used
Playing that game means you automatically loose
Really, no joke
We shouldn’t make light
When dating’s about finding
A husband or wife
You know, that person your with
For the rest of your life
Hello? I’m talking about marriage here
So lets be clear
There is one person out there
And we need to be prepared
The opposite of prepared
Is just throwing yourself away
No, it’s waiting for that specific special day
That doesn’t mean to dive in head first
Cause if he want all this
He’s got to work for it first.
He’s a leader immersed in God’s spirit
The only one fit
Will be humble
But still have dignity
And he’ll love God more
Than he could ever love me
A respectable reputation
Is important too
Because their impression of him
Will reflect onto you
Reverse that
Cause what’s given
Must be returned
If you want his last name
That’s got to earned
She’s supportive
Gives him a reason to smile
Goes the extra mile
To help him be a man
Become his biggest fan
Tell him you are my one
And only dude
Plus he’ll stay forever
If you bring him food
So, lets think this through
Once you say, “I do”
You’re eternally bind
And you’re got those rings
To remind each other
That was just the start
Cause from there it’s
Til’ death do us part
And for better or for worse
You must put yourself last
And the other first
Find a servant when choosing
A groom or bride
Not someone above you
But right by your side
Both day and night
Through good times and fights
From being young and beautiful
Til your hair turns white.
Which should be alright
Because he’ll be bald anyway
But appearances won’t be the reason you stay
No, it’s the fact that everyday
You get to hear I love you
From someone who sincerely mean it too.
They know you more than anyone else
In fact, better than you know yourself
You were good as one
But you’re better as two
It seems as if God
Created them for you
Not just a mate
Two species to procreate
No, two best friends becoming a unity
Coming together to start a family.
Everyone deserves a chance
To experience authentic romance
When seeking this to be your fate
Keep marriage in mind
When choosing to date
But wait, I’m not saying
If you’re together
You’ve got to tie the knot
I’m just suggesting
Give it some extra thought
Ask yourself,
Are they marriage potential
And if not
Don’t go there
Why would you dare
Go down a path leading nowhere.
So, stop freaking out
Cause there’s no ring on your hand
If Beyoncé can do it
Then anyone can
To find my man
I have to follow the Big Man Upstairs
It’s all in the plan
He’s just getting us prepared
I know when we’re together
It will be great
So he can take his time
Cause it’s worth the wait
So slow your pace
This isn’t a race
God know the right time
And the perfect place.
By Nicole L. Lawrence
The other day I was talking to my best friend
and she seriously sounded just like this.
OMG! My life is over
My world has come to an end
I have to start all over
Because I’m single again!
Wow!
Okay you’ve all been there
And to be fair, I have too
We’ve all learned breaking up
Isn’t easy to do
It’s takes time
And gallons of ice cream
To get through
But we’ve also learned
Being single isn’t the end
So why should I depend
On a relationship status
To determine my value
Who are you to decide
Since I there’s no man by my side
Like the opportunity is now or never
And if I don’t take my chance
I’ll be alone forever
And you think you’re so clever
With your snarky comments like
“You know, cats aren’t so bad.”
No! What’s not so bad is being single
I’m not going to christianmingle.com
Like it’s my last shot
I may be single
But desperate, I’m not
And I know this thought
Is likely mind blowing
But maybe we’re going
About relationship the wrong way
Because today the attitude is
Take what you can get
And forget about playing hard to get
Cause well that’s just too, hard
Nah, today everything is such an ease
You just strut and do a little tease
And by the end of the night
He’ll be down on his knees
Yeah, being hit on by some guy who’s sleazy
And uses a cheesy pick-up line
That is where I draw the line
I’m sorry my life doesn’t reflect Jersey Shore
But I’ve come to believe there’s got to be more
Seriously, there’s got to be more
Than to please that sleaze
I show off my goodies
When the next he’s just going to forget my name
Like winning his affection is some kind of game
No thank you, I refuse to be used
Playing that game means you automatically loose
Really, no joke
We shouldn’t make light
When dating’s about finding
A husband or wife
You know, that person your with
For the rest of your life
Hello? I’m talking about marriage here
So lets be clear
There is one person out there
And we need to be prepared
The opposite of prepared
Is just throwing yourself away
No, it’s waiting for that specific special day
That doesn’t mean to dive in head first
Cause if he want all this
He’s got to work for it first.
He’s a leader immersed in God’s spirit
The only one fit
Will be humble
But still have dignity
And he’ll love God more
Than he could ever love me
A respectable reputation
Is important too
Because their impression of him
Will reflect onto you
Reverse that
Cause what’s given
Must be returned
If you want his last name
That’s got to earned
She’s supportive
Gives him a reason to smile
Goes the extra mile
To help him be a man
Become his biggest fan
Tell him you are my one
And only dude
Plus he’ll stay forever
If you bring him food
So, lets think this through
Once you say, “I do”
You’re eternally bind
And you’re got those rings
To remind each other
That was just the start
Cause from there it’s
Til’ death do us part
And for better or for worse
You must put yourself last
And the other first
Find a servant when choosing
A groom or bride
Not someone above you
But right by your side
Both day and night
Through good times and fights
From being young and beautiful
Til your hair turns white.
Which should be alright
Because he’ll be bald anyway
But appearances won’t be the reason you stay
No, it’s the fact that everyday
You get to hear I love you
From someone who sincerely mean it too.
They know you more than anyone else
In fact, better than you know yourself
You were good as one
But you’re better as two
It seems as if God
Created them for you
Not just a mate
Two species to procreate
No, two best friends becoming a unity
Coming together to start a family.
Everyone deserves a chance
To experience authentic romance
When seeking this to be your fate
Keep marriage in mind
When choosing to date
But wait, I’m not saying
If you’re together
You’ve got to tie the knot
I’m just suggesting
Give it some extra thought
Ask yourself,
Are they marriage potential
And if not
Don’t go there
Why would you dare
Go down a path leading nowhere.
So, stop freaking out
Cause there’s no ring on your hand
If Beyoncé can do it
Then anyone can
To find my man
I have to follow the Big Man Upstairs
It’s all in the plan
He’s just getting us prepared
I know when we’re together
It will be great
So he can take his time
Cause it’s worth the wait
So slow your pace
This isn’t a race
God know the right time
And the perfect place.
Would You Go?
By Nicole L. Lawrence
If Jesus were here today
And asked you to walk away
To leave it all and answer the call
Would you go?
…I don’t know.
If Jesus we were today
And asked you to walk away
To never look back
Bring nothing to pack
But the shoes on your feet
And the shirt on your back
Would you go?
I don’t think so.
I’d probably just sit and be lazy
Thinking that’s crazy.
But he is here now and he’s waiting
There’s no more time for your hesitating.
Really, he’s calling on you
And the things he’ll ask you to do may be trying
And sometimes could lead to dying.
I know, that sounds insane
But to live is Christ and to die is to gain.
But sometimes this cross is so heavy
I’m not sure if I’m ready to follow
The fear alone could swallow me up
When others found out the began to erupt
Saying what you asked was un-wise
And it all had to be lies
One night I was praying
And I remember saying,
“Your will be done.”
But this plan of yours is no fun
So what’s the use
Finally I’ve used every excuse.
Sometimes your plan
Is something I don’t understand
Because I could get hurt
And be desert and feel alone
Or have to leave comfort of my home
But even when I’m confused
You’ve called on me to be used
For your glory
Cause every story has it’s twists
But this is why exisit.
Sometimes I’ll resist
I’ll put up my fists
But even when I don’t want to go
You show me the way
You say everything is okay
Just take it day by day.
Because you know what’s best
Even if the rest don’t agree
They don’t know what plans you have for me
There’s no need to be scared
You wouldn’t send me if I wasn’t prepared
So let’s go for a ride
And with you by my side
As you guide me along
On this lifelong trip
Sometimes I’ll face hardship
And I won’t hear your voice
But I’ll rejoice and keep going
As you keep showing me the path
Some will laugh
But I’ll turn my cheek
At times I’ll be weak and fail
Storms will come
And pour down their hail
But you’ll keeping calling me name
And forgive me of my shame.
And I’ll admit
They’ll be times I’ll want to quit
But you’ll make me strong
And we’ll keep going along.
So when it’s your turn
Don’t be stubborn and resist
I insist you go
And show them all
To listen to the call
It might seem outrageous
But he said be courageous
When they call you a fool
For not following their rules
Go anyway
Who cares what they say
Don’t think about the struggle and pain
Instead remember what’s to be gained
Don’t be chained by doubt
Because he’s right there with you
On every route.
So if Jesus were here today
And asked you to walk away
Would you go?
By Nicole L. Lawrence
If Jesus were here today
And asked you to walk away
To leave it all and answer the call
Would you go?
…I don’t know.
If Jesus we were today
And asked you to walk away
To never look back
Bring nothing to pack
But the shoes on your feet
And the shirt on your back
Would you go?
I don’t think so.
I’d probably just sit and be lazy
Thinking that’s crazy.
But he is here now and he’s waiting
There’s no more time for your hesitating.
Really, he’s calling on you
And the things he’ll ask you to do may be trying
And sometimes could lead to dying.
I know, that sounds insane
But to live is Christ and to die is to gain.
But sometimes this cross is so heavy
I’m not sure if I’m ready to follow
The fear alone could swallow me up
When others found out the began to erupt
Saying what you asked was un-wise
And it all had to be lies
One night I was praying
And I remember saying,
“Your will be done.”
But this plan of yours is no fun
So what’s the use
Finally I’ve used every excuse.
Sometimes your plan
Is something I don’t understand
Because I could get hurt
And be desert and feel alone
Or have to leave comfort of my home
But even when I’m confused
You’ve called on me to be used
For your glory
Cause every story has it’s twists
But this is why exisit.
Sometimes I’ll resist
I’ll put up my fists
But even when I don’t want to go
You show me the way
You say everything is okay
Just take it day by day.
Because you know what’s best
Even if the rest don’t agree
They don’t know what plans you have for me
There’s no need to be scared
You wouldn’t send me if I wasn’t prepared
So let’s go for a ride
And with you by my side
As you guide me along
On this lifelong trip
Sometimes I’ll face hardship
And I won’t hear your voice
But I’ll rejoice and keep going
As you keep showing me the path
Some will laugh
But I’ll turn my cheek
At times I’ll be weak and fail
Storms will come
And pour down their hail
But you’ll keeping calling me name
And forgive me of my shame.
And I’ll admit
They’ll be times I’ll want to quit
But you’ll make me strong
And we’ll keep going along.
So when it’s your turn
Don’t be stubborn and resist
I insist you go
And show them all
To listen to the call
It might seem outrageous
But he said be courageous
When they call you a fool
For not following their rules
Go anyway
Who cares what they say
Don’t think about the struggle and pain
Instead remember what’s to be gained
Don’t be chained by doubt
Because he’s right there with you
On every route.
So if Jesus were here today
And asked you to walk away
Would you go?
These are the Days
By Nicole L. Lawrence
* Dedicated to the Wisconsin Christian Youth Camp (W.C.Y.C) Senior Session *
Once our eyes meet, we jump to our feet
Cause finally we’re here!
I’ve waited all year to see your smile
And we must catch cause its been awhile
The perfect place for that is right here
Cause time seems to just disappear
So we sit on a swing and talk about things
Then someone sings, so we all join in
And this is where it begins.
Yes, The lessons are taught
The sugar is bought
Snipes are caught…well some are not
We sweat through out clothes cause it’s really hot
So we jump in the crick before tonight’s picnic
But later don’t forget to check for a tick
The water fights, fires each night
And the stars shine bright
While in our beds we lay
In our heads the though replays
“Ah, these are the days”
From the morning bell’s ring
Til evenings final words we sing
Our cup are filled til they over flow
And everyone knows this is a special place
One filled with HIS grace
It can’t help but bring a smile to your face.
Cause the inside jokes
And the facebook quotes
That will be repeated for years
And there are no fears
Cause we’re surrounded by peers
Who always show love
And give the perfect hug
And yeah, There’s bugs
But the can’t ruin our fun
One spray with a can and that battle is won.
The job always gets done
And when the sun leaves and the thunder rolls
We still have everything under control
Nothing can stand in our ways
Cause yep, “These are the days.”
But the days have to end
And we can only pretend for so long
Til we sing the closing song
And we try to be strong
But it’s no use
Cause the tears break loose
As we blow out the final flame
Knowing it will never be the same
We say our last good-bye
Then walk away and sigh
As we go our separate ways
Thinking “Those were the days.”
Now it seems we’re far apart
But you’ll always be close in my heart
It’s not really good-bye, just see you later
Cause one day we’ll all be someplace greater
And in this lifetime we’ll come to an end
But please know Someday we’ll meet again
But til then keep up the fight
Even on those stormy nights
Hold the faith with all your might.
Cause soon will come that celebration
But til then go tell the nations
And save yourself from our corrupt generation.
I seems far, I know, but just wait
Cause that date is arriving fast
And we’ll be together forever at last
So rejoice, and let that pull you through
And thank you for the small view of heaven we shared
Now get yourself prepared
Cause I need to see you there
Up past the sun’s rays
Cause he promised, “Those will be the days.”
By Nicole L. Lawrence
* Dedicated to the Wisconsin Christian Youth Camp (W.C.Y.C) Senior Session *
Once our eyes meet, we jump to our feet
Cause finally we’re here!
I’ve waited all year to see your smile
And we must catch cause its been awhile
The perfect place for that is right here
Cause time seems to just disappear
So we sit on a swing and talk about things
Then someone sings, so we all join in
And this is where it begins.
Yes, The lessons are taught
The sugar is bought
Snipes are caught…well some are not
We sweat through out clothes cause it’s really hot
So we jump in the crick before tonight’s picnic
But later don’t forget to check for a tick
The water fights, fires each night
And the stars shine bright
While in our beds we lay
In our heads the though replays
“Ah, these are the days”
From the morning bell’s ring
Til evenings final words we sing
Our cup are filled til they over flow
And everyone knows this is a special place
One filled with HIS grace
It can’t help but bring a smile to your face.
Cause the inside jokes
And the facebook quotes
That will be repeated for years
And there are no fears
Cause we’re surrounded by peers
Who always show love
And give the perfect hug
And yeah, There’s bugs
But the can’t ruin our fun
One spray with a can and that battle is won.
The job always gets done
And when the sun leaves and the thunder rolls
We still have everything under control
Nothing can stand in our ways
Cause yep, “These are the days.”
But the days have to end
And we can only pretend for so long
Til we sing the closing song
And we try to be strong
But it’s no use
Cause the tears break loose
As we blow out the final flame
Knowing it will never be the same
We say our last good-bye
Then walk away and sigh
As we go our separate ways
Thinking “Those were the days.”
Now it seems we’re far apart
But you’ll always be close in my heart
It’s not really good-bye, just see you later
Cause one day we’ll all be someplace greater
And in this lifetime we’ll come to an end
But please know Someday we’ll meet again
But til then keep up the fight
Even on those stormy nights
Hold the faith with all your might.
Cause soon will come that celebration
But til then go tell the nations
And save yourself from our corrupt generation.
I seems far, I know, but just wait
Cause that date is arriving fast
And we’ll be together forever at last
So rejoice, and let that pull you through
And thank you for the small view of heaven we shared
Now get yourself prepared
Cause I need to see you there
Up past the sun’s rays
Cause he promised, “Those will be the days.”
Oh Yeah! I Went There
By Nicole L. Lawrence
You are so rude!
I don’t need your attitude
You walked in here
Had everyone shakin’ in fear
Afraid what you might do or say
Made sure things went your way
Well, not Today.
Why do you always tare me down
You feed off tears and frowns
And now, I’m taking your crown
Cause your tyranny is about to end.
Don’t roll your eyes and pretend you don’t care
Cause we’re both aware of your tame-less tongue
That has stung me too many times
And now I’m DONE.
You can go down the list
Insist that I’m;
ugly
fat
dumb
too short
too blonde
Too whatever….
Cause all of them are lies
You disguise your flaws by calling out mine
I let you define the value of me
But now I see that beauty is not decided by you
But instead by the one who knew me before I was bore
And now he lets me soar.
He’s my biggest fan
Created me for a special plan.
So take it up with him if you have a complaint
But that ain’t gonna end well.
So next time just tell yourself to think before you speak
Don’t let that venom like
Cause I may be weak, but he makes me strong
And his word tells me you’re wrong.
So I think we’re done here….and Oh Yeah, I went There!
By Nicole L. Lawrence
You are so rude!
I don’t need your attitude
You walked in here
Had everyone shakin’ in fear
Afraid what you might do or say
Made sure things went your way
Well, not Today.
Why do you always tare me down
You feed off tears and frowns
And now, I’m taking your crown
Cause your tyranny is about to end.
Don’t roll your eyes and pretend you don’t care
Cause we’re both aware of your tame-less tongue
That has stung me too many times
And now I’m DONE.
You can go down the list
Insist that I’m;
ugly
fat
dumb
too short
too blonde
Too whatever….
Cause all of them are lies
You disguise your flaws by calling out mine
I let you define the value of me
But now I see that beauty is not decided by you
But instead by the one who knew me before I was bore
And now he lets me soar.
He’s my biggest fan
Created me for a special plan.
So take it up with him if you have a complaint
But that ain’t gonna end well.
So next time just tell yourself to think before you speak
Don’t let that venom like
Cause I may be weak, but he makes me strong
And his word tells me you’re wrong.
So I think we’re done here….and Oh Yeah, I went There!
A Night with No Moon
By Nicole L. Lawrence
I’ve lost sight of my righteousness,
I’m swallowed by darkness,
My sin leaves me restless.
So I look to the sky, cause the stars will guide and the moon will protect,
At least I suspect, it’s light will show and my faith will grow
But the atmosphere is black.
My eyes pan back and forth, looking for something of worth,
Because the moon is gone, in the distance wolves cry their song,
They are hungry
This night is so long, it feels like days til it will be dawn,
And the night has became a game I can’t win, because the prize is sin,
But for some reason I play again and again.
Where is the moon? Will it be here soon?
I have begged for it many times, just now the midnight bell chimes,
I have lost hope.
I’m covered in doom, I see the empty tomb,
But where are you now, I don’t know how to find your light,
When I am alone on a moonless night.
I need you to hold me tight,
Tell me it will be alright,
But there’s not a soul in sight.
But you are like a new moon.
I can’t see you, but I know you’re there.
By Nicole L. Lawrence
I’ve lost sight of my righteousness,
I’m swallowed by darkness,
My sin leaves me restless.
So I look to the sky, cause the stars will guide and the moon will protect,
At least I suspect, it’s light will show and my faith will grow
But the atmosphere is black.
My eyes pan back and forth, looking for something of worth,
Because the moon is gone, in the distance wolves cry their song,
They are hungry
This night is so long, it feels like days til it will be dawn,
And the night has became a game I can’t win, because the prize is sin,
But for some reason I play again and again.
Where is the moon? Will it be here soon?
I have begged for it many times, just now the midnight bell chimes,
I have lost hope.
I’m covered in doom, I see the empty tomb,
But where are you now, I don’t know how to find your light,
When I am alone on a moonless night.
I need you to hold me tight,
Tell me it will be alright,
But there’s not a soul in sight.
But you are like a new moon.
I can’t see you, but I know you’re there.
Second Chance
By Nicole L. Lawrence
Life just sucks,
What’s the purpose anymore,
And I swore I wasn’t gonna go there,
Although I’ve thought about it for weeks,
And life just reeks of crap,
And I don’t want to pretend to be happy when I’m really pissed,
So it’s time to kiss this world good-bye,
You won’t miss me anyway,
Cause there’s no on here to say, “don’t leave”, or make me stay.
I’m just a burden to my friends,
If I don’t exist their troubles end,
They try to be genuine, but I still think it’s pretend,
I feel like a joke,
People laugh and poke then say, “jk”
But I’m still offended anyway,
Cause there’s something wrong with me,
I don’t deserve to be here,
So I’ll go, and NO!
This isn’t a cry for attention,
In fact my intentions have nothing to do with you,
Just wait a few moments, and my life will be through.
My family says it’s just a stage,
And it will pass with age,
They send me to a stranger with a PHD
Whose paid to listen to me.
Ding! Time’s up here’s the bill,
If you’re an expert why do
I still hate the person I see in the mirror,
I’ve cried so much I’m out of tears,
And I’m sick of waiting for God to show up,
If he really cares why is my life so tough,
Maybe cause he doesn’t love me,
Yeah, that’s what it’s gotta be,
I’m probably his mistake,
So I’ll jump into the late,
And wait til I’m out of breath,
Cause the only solution is death.
Cause I don’t want to live anymore,
So I go behind closed doors,
And I turn off the lights then I cut and burn,
Cause this is the pain I’ve earned,
They think I’m numb and treat me like scum,
But I’m human and it hurts, I feel dissert,
And no one cares about this rope around my throat,
I left my final note,
I’m sick of trying to float on this sinking boat,
And the waters are over my head,
And I already feel dead,
You could say “Don’t you dare”
You’ll go to hell, well I’m already there.
Everything I do is wrong,
No point in faking I’m strong,
So swallow the pills and it won’t be long,
But something is holding me back,
No, don’t think just act,
Pull the trigger on this gun and BAM!
It’s done.
But now I see a place,
Where everyone’s face is covered in black veils,
I see candles and hear wails,
There’s not one smile, only frowns,
And the feeling of grief surrounds the room,
Even the flowers can’t end the gloom,
But this can’t be my fault,
My death was supposed to result in relief,
Not disbelief of what I’ve done,
I thought you’d be happy that I’m gone.
I never shared how much you cared,
And now it’s too late,
Why did you all wait?
But I guess I waited too,
Cause they never knew I felt this way,
I was afraid what they might say,
And they could have told someone else,
So I kept it to myself.
Then I see out of the corner of my eye my closest friend,
I never liked when she cried,
And as the tears fall I over hear her recall that day,
When she asked if I was okay,
I said yes, but she knew it wasn’t true,
But she didn’t know what to do,
So she walked away,
And didn’t even remember to pray,
Then she got a call that night,
And drive right to the cite,
And saw the flashing lights,
Stunned and shocked, she still hasn’t forgot
The body bag laying on the lot,
And repeating the thought “I’m too late”
And to this date she takes the blame,
every time she hers my name,
She will be reminded of her shame.
But this isn’t her fault,
This assault was my choice,
But she can’t her my voice,
No one can cause I’m just a name on a stone,
Nothing left but bones and memories that won’t last,
Another cross to pass,
Another number in the facts.
But I had so much more to do and give,
Why did I wait til death to live?
Things weren’t as bad as they seemed,
Wake me up from this dream, no nightmare,
I swear it will be different this time,
Please don’t leave me behind!
Then I hear a whisper in my ear,
Child, you were never alone,
I heard every cry and moan,
And I felt every cut of the knife,
And life is my gift to you,
And your days are already few,
So don’t cut them short,
Cause death is not the last resort.
Child, I love you so much I sent my own Son to die alone,
So you wouldn’t have to tonight,
I will help you fight,
I will the light even in your darkest night,
And when you don’t feel strong,
You’ve got me to lean on,
Cause I’m never too far,
And let me heal those scars with love you’ve never known,
And one day I’ll call you home,
But for now put down the gun,
cause I’m not done with you,
In fact I’ve only begun.
By Nicole L. Lawrence
Life just sucks,
What’s the purpose anymore,
And I swore I wasn’t gonna go there,
Although I’ve thought about it for weeks,
And life just reeks of crap,
And I don’t want to pretend to be happy when I’m really pissed,
So it’s time to kiss this world good-bye,
You won’t miss me anyway,
Cause there’s no on here to say, “don’t leave”, or make me stay.
I’m just a burden to my friends,
If I don’t exist their troubles end,
They try to be genuine, but I still think it’s pretend,
I feel like a joke,
People laugh and poke then say, “jk”
But I’m still offended anyway,
Cause there’s something wrong with me,
I don’t deserve to be here,
So I’ll go, and NO!
This isn’t a cry for attention,
In fact my intentions have nothing to do with you,
Just wait a few moments, and my life will be through.
My family says it’s just a stage,
And it will pass with age,
They send me to a stranger with a PHD
Whose paid to listen to me.
Ding! Time’s up here’s the bill,
If you’re an expert why do
I still hate the person I see in the mirror,
I’ve cried so much I’m out of tears,
And I’m sick of waiting for God to show up,
If he really cares why is my life so tough,
Maybe cause he doesn’t love me,
Yeah, that’s what it’s gotta be,
I’m probably his mistake,
So I’ll jump into the late,
And wait til I’m out of breath,
Cause the only solution is death.
Cause I don’t want to live anymore,
So I go behind closed doors,
And I turn off the lights then I cut and burn,
Cause this is the pain I’ve earned,
They think I’m numb and treat me like scum,
But I’m human and it hurts, I feel dissert,
And no one cares about this rope around my throat,
I left my final note,
I’m sick of trying to float on this sinking boat,
And the waters are over my head,
And I already feel dead,
You could say “Don’t you dare”
You’ll go to hell, well I’m already there.
Everything I do is wrong,
No point in faking I’m strong,
So swallow the pills and it won’t be long,
But something is holding me back,
No, don’t think just act,
Pull the trigger on this gun and BAM!
It’s done.
But now I see a place,
Where everyone’s face is covered in black veils,
I see candles and hear wails,
There’s not one smile, only frowns,
And the feeling of grief surrounds the room,
Even the flowers can’t end the gloom,
But this can’t be my fault,
My death was supposed to result in relief,
Not disbelief of what I’ve done,
I thought you’d be happy that I’m gone.
I never shared how much you cared,
And now it’s too late,
Why did you all wait?
But I guess I waited too,
Cause they never knew I felt this way,
I was afraid what they might say,
And they could have told someone else,
So I kept it to myself.
Then I see out of the corner of my eye my closest friend,
I never liked when she cried,
And as the tears fall I over hear her recall that day,
When she asked if I was okay,
I said yes, but she knew it wasn’t true,
But she didn’t know what to do,
So she walked away,
And didn’t even remember to pray,
Then she got a call that night,
And drive right to the cite,
And saw the flashing lights,
Stunned and shocked, she still hasn’t forgot
The body bag laying on the lot,
And repeating the thought “I’m too late”
And to this date she takes the blame,
every time she hers my name,
She will be reminded of her shame.
But this isn’t her fault,
This assault was my choice,
But she can’t her my voice,
No one can cause I’m just a name on a stone,
Nothing left but bones and memories that won’t last,
Another cross to pass,
Another number in the facts.
But I had so much more to do and give,
Why did I wait til death to live?
Things weren’t as bad as they seemed,
Wake me up from this dream, no nightmare,
I swear it will be different this time,
Please don’t leave me behind!
Then I hear a whisper in my ear,
Child, you were never alone,
I heard every cry and moan,
And I felt every cut of the knife,
And life is my gift to you,
And your days are already few,
So don’t cut them short,
Cause death is not the last resort.
Child, I love you so much I sent my own Son to die alone,
So you wouldn’t have to tonight,
I will help you fight,
I will the light even in your darkest night,
And when you don’t feel strong,
You’ve got me to lean on,
Cause I’m never too far,
And let me heal those scars with love you’ve never known,
And one day I’ll call you home,
But for now put down the gun,
cause I’m not done with you,
In fact I’ve only begun.
Hide and Seek
By Nicole L. Lawrence
Welcome to church today,
And I must say I’m glad you’re here,
Even if you only come twice a year.
Oh, and I hear you didn’t come last week,
Cause you’re basement had a leak,
When really you could’ve came,
but instead you watched the game.
And you there on the cell,
Texting about what happened last night in the hotel,
Don’t worry I won’t tell,
I just think you’re going to hell.
And look who finally sobered up,
Today’s your first time in a week without a cup or 2...or 7,
But there’s no way you’re getting to heaven.
And you’ve been coming since you were 2,
But only because your parents made you,
And you’re not sure why you come anymore,
Cause your faith isn’t yours,
Just stuff people told you before.
You’ve been cheating on your wife,
You cut yourself with a knife,
And you, How was the casino last night,
And you’re lying to your parents right,
I know about the magazines under your bed,
And I’m not deaf, I heard the dirty word you said,
You failed your last drug test,
But no one here has confessed.
We all show up with plastic smiles on our face,
Make small talk and sing “Amazing Grace”,
We all wear our nice Sunday clothes,
But deep down everyone knows it’s just pretend,
We go back to reality until it’s Sunday again.
And we know sin is evil,
But we’re still not willing to let it go,
So were cover it up with pretty bows,
And hope nobody knows we’re tied together with a thread,
And only when we’re alone can we let it shred,
Then we sew it back up,
And with our luck no one finds out,
On the outside you smile,
But on the inside you want to shout,
You need help, and you thought this was the place,
But it’s not, cause everyone’s fake with masks on their face.
And as for me? I’m the worst of all,
I’m so good at making you fell small,
Calling you out, making you feel bad about your sin,
And the only reason you’re here again is cause fear,
And you sit there and listen to me teach,
But even I don’t practice what I preach.
I may not do that bad stuff,
But not doing sin isn’t enough,
I’m supposed to be the light to show you were to go,
But my bulb went out years ago.
I’ve decided you’re out so I can be in,
It’s a game I must win, so you must loose,
Even though I have no right to choose,
I tell you not to judge, but who am I trying to convince?
I’ve judged you since the moment I saw you,
And I already knew you were like the rest,
And you already failed my test.
At too many churches this true,
We’ve all sit in those pews,
And felt the guilt that has build inside
And felt the need to hide,
But this isn’t what the body is about,
We all doubt, and we all sin,
So why should we keep it hidden?
By Nicole L. Lawrence
Welcome to church today,
And I must say I’m glad you’re here,
Even if you only come twice a year.
Oh, and I hear you didn’t come last week,
Cause you’re basement had a leak,
When really you could’ve came,
but instead you watched the game.
And you there on the cell,
Texting about what happened last night in the hotel,
Don’t worry I won’t tell,
I just think you’re going to hell.
And look who finally sobered up,
Today’s your first time in a week without a cup or 2...or 7,
But there’s no way you’re getting to heaven.
And you’ve been coming since you were 2,
But only because your parents made you,
And you’re not sure why you come anymore,
Cause your faith isn’t yours,
Just stuff people told you before.
You’ve been cheating on your wife,
You cut yourself with a knife,
And you, How was the casino last night,
And you’re lying to your parents right,
I know about the magazines under your bed,
And I’m not deaf, I heard the dirty word you said,
You failed your last drug test,
But no one here has confessed.
We all show up with plastic smiles on our face,
Make small talk and sing “Amazing Grace”,
We all wear our nice Sunday clothes,
But deep down everyone knows it’s just pretend,
We go back to reality until it’s Sunday again.
And we know sin is evil,
But we’re still not willing to let it go,
So were cover it up with pretty bows,
And hope nobody knows we’re tied together with a thread,
And only when we’re alone can we let it shred,
Then we sew it back up,
And with our luck no one finds out,
On the outside you smile,
But on the inside you want to shout,
You need help, and you thought this was the place,
But it’s not, cause everyone’s fake with masks on their face.
And as for me? I’m the worst of all,
I’m so good at making you fell small,
Calling you out, making you feel bad about your sin,
And the only reason you’re here again is cause fear,
And you sit there and listen to me teach,
But even I don’t practice what I preach.
I may not do that bad stuff,
But not doing sin isn’t enough,
I’m supposed to be the light to show you were to go,
But my bulb went out years ago.
I’ve decided you’re out so I can be in,
It’s a game I must win, so you must loose,
Even though I have no right to choose,
I tell you not to judge, but who am I trying to convince?
I’ve judged you since the moment I saw you,
And I already knew you were like the rest,
And you already failed my test.
At too many churches this true,
We’ve all sit in those pews,
And felt the guilt that has build inside
And felt the need to hide,
But this isn’t what the body is about,
We all doubt, and we all sin,
So why should we keep it hidden?
All You Need
By Nicole L. Lawrence
“What is Love” you ask,
Well that’s not an easy task,
Although we hear it all the time,
To the point it should be a crime,
They’re many types of Love we know,
And the list grows and grows,
Because Love covers all,
The big stuff and the small,
It’s purer than snow, and sweeter than honey,
And goes on and on like the energizer bunny.
In fairy tales true Loves kiss,
Is the only way to eternal bliss,
But in reality Love sees all that’s true,
And always accepts the good and bad in you,
Love is harder than hate,
But if you’ve got guts to step up to the plate,
Love is always the better choice,
It will rejoice in good, and push evil away,
So you won’t stray because it always protects,
Love serves and respects everyone,
It’s a war that’s already won,
The race we can’t run on our own,
It is shown to us to be passed along,
It’s the topic of almost every song,
A strong word that even Webster can’t explain,
It’s not just from the brain, but the heart,
And moves through everybody part,
Cause it’s physical, emotional, spiritual, unconditional, eternal,
The list goes on for day,
Because love is seen in different ways,
And this poem has gone on forever,
And you think I’ll never quit,
But before you have fit,
And throw stuff to make me sit,
Cause even I’m tired of listening to myself talk,
So hear these final words before I walk:
God is Love,
Love is all,
God is all,
All you need.
By Nicole L. Lawrence
“What is Love” you ask,
Well that’s not an easy task,
Although we hear it all the time,
To the point it should be a crime,
They’re many types of Love we know,
And the list grows and grows,
Because Love covers all,
The big stuff and the small,
It’s purer than snow, and sweeter than honey,
And goes on and on like the energizer bunny.
In fairy tales true Loves kiss,
Is the only way to eternal bliss,
But in reality Love sees all that’s true,
And always accepts the good and bad in you,
Love is harder than hate,
But if you’ve got guts to step up to the plate,
Love is always the better choice,
It will rejoice in good, and push evil away,
So you won’t stray because it always protects,
Love serves and respects everyone,
It’s a war that’s already won,
The race we can’t run on our own,
It is shown to us to be passed along,
It’s the topic of almost every song,
A strong word that even Webster can’t explain,
It’s not just from the brain, but the heart,
And moves through everybody part,
Cause it’s physical, emotional, spiritual, unconditional, eternal,
The list goes on for day,
Because love is seen in different ways,
And this poem has gone on forever,
And you think I’ll never quit,
But before you have fit,
And throw stuff to make me sit,
Cause even I’m tired of listening to myself talk,
So hear these final words before I walk:
God is Love,
Love is all,
God is all,
All you need.
Come on In
By Nicole L. Lawrence
Lord, I am so glad you’re here
But sorry you can’t come too near to me
Cause you see I need to keep you somewhat far
So you can’t see these scars,
Even though you know me left and right,
I’m afraid to bring my inequalities into the light.
So I hide in the night, and I’ll scream and put up a fight
If you take another step this way
So just stay where you are, cause you can only come so far
Before the walls come up, and my heart becomes tough
Cause I don’t want to deal with that heart wrenching stuff.
Cause it’s better to be numb, and my eyes to be dry
Than to feel the guilt, and let myself cry
Lord, I want you to come in
But my sin is blocking the door
And I’ll give you more, but I won’t give it all
At least not today, I’ll give you 95%
Cause that’s still and A
And 100% is too much anyway.
I’ll jump in the water, but I’ll only go so deep
And I’ll climb any mountain, as long as it isn’t too steep
I’ll follow you to the end,
Unless the finish is too far, then it depends
Cause my faith is on the rocks
And I’m pretending to be something I’m not
This distance from you is not okay,
Cause I’m afraid you’ll get bored and walk away.
So I need you to come and get in my face
And make my heart a place where you can live, help me forgive
Cause my soul is cold, and my prayers are old
So just hold me down and break my heart, press restart
And melt away the snow, and show me pain
Until tears fall like rain.
I’ll kick and scream, I’ll spit and plea
But promise you won’t give up on me
Break through, do what you gotta do,
Lock the door behind you,
And throw away the key
Bring me to my knees.
It won’t be easy, but if you will
Please fill this empty space until I’m covered in your grace,
Hold me in your embrace.
Cause I need you in my heart, to tear this wall apart
It was built on doubt trying to keep you out
But really it’s sin that’s trapped me in
I need to break free, please rescue me
Cause only you can help save me from myself.
By Nicole L. Lawrence
Lord, I am so glad you’re here
But sorry you can’t come too near to me
Cause you see I need to keep you somewhat far
So you can’t see these scars,
Even though you know me left and right,
I’m afraid to bring my inequalities into the light.
So I hide in the night, and I’ll scream and put up a fight
If you take another step this way
So just stay where you are, cause you can only come so far
Before the walls come up, and my heart becomes tough
Cause I don’t want to deal with that heart wrenching stuff.
Cause it’s better to be numb, and my eyes to be dry
Than to feel the guilt, and let myself cry
Lord, I want you to come in
But my sin is blocking the door
And I’ll give you more, but I won’t give it all
At least not today, I’ll give you 95%
Cause that’s still and A
And 100% is too much anyway.
I’ll jump in the water, but I’ll only go so deep
And I’ll climb any mountain, as long as it isn’t too steep
I’ll follow you to the end,
Unless the finish is too far, then it depends
Cause my faith is on the rocks
And I’m pretending to be something I’m not
This distance from you is not okay,
Cause I’m afraid you’ll get bored and walk away.
So I need you to come and get in my face
And make my heart a place where you can live, help me forgive
Cause my soul is cold, and my prayers are old
So just hold me down and break my heart, press restart
And melt away the snow, and show me pain
Until tears fall like rain.
I’ll kick and scream, I’ll spit and plea
But promise you won’t give up on me
Break through, do what you gotta do,
Lock the door behind you,
And throw away the key
Bring me to my knees.
It won’t be easy, but if you will
Please fill this empty space until I’m covered in your grace,
Hold me in your embrace.
Cause I need you in my heart, to tear this wall apart
It was built on doubt trying to keep you out
But really it’s sin that’s trapped me in
I need to break free, please rescue me
Cause only you can help save me from myself.
Rag Doll
By Nicole L. Lawrence
When I was a kid I had a lot of toys that came and went,
But Molly, she was different,
I remember that Christmas when I was 8,
That bright and snowy morning was fate,
Molly became my Best Friend.
Wherever I went Molly came too,
And leaving her behind was the hardest thing to do,
Yep, she was there through it all,
Cause to me she wasn’t just any doll,
At dinner I would slip her a few bites,
And at bed time she was by my side every night,
Sometimes I would even sneak her in the bath,
She was there for every tear, and every laugh.
I loved that doll more than any child could,
But my love for her was too strong for her own good,
Cause if you think your life is hard,
Try being Molly, now that’s tough,
She was dragged through the mud,
And pushed off all kinds of stuff,
Her arm fell off, her hair was cut,
She was covered in dirt, and who knows what?
If that doll could talk it would yell,
She became so invaluable not even Ebay could sell,
But it didn’t matter to me,
I loved her just as much as I had that Christmas morning.
One day my Mom said we had to throw her away,
But I wouldn’t have it, she had to stay,
I said Mom
“If you love me, you have to love Molly too”
She smiled and said, “There must be something we can do”
And sure enough we packed Molly Up,
And shipped her to the doll hospital,
Yes, There really is such a place.
And when she came back, she was better than before,
She was returned her value, and was beautiful once more.
But it didn’t make a difference, I didn’t really care,
Cause to me what made her beautiful,
Were the moments that we shared.
I don’t tell this story so we can all simultaneously go “Awe”,
Or in other cases put you to sleep,
I tell this story because we’re all Molly…we’re rag dolls.
We once were beautiful and brand new,
But now torn and ripped by what life’s put us through,
We’ve been hurt by the ones we love most of all,
And cause our own raggedness by our sins and falls.
But God, the two best words in the Bible,
BUT GOD loves us even in our brokenness,
Even when the world sees us as nothing,
He we’re the most valuable.
And even when we sin against him,
He still loves us.
And there came a time when God looked at us and thought,
“They’re so ugly and broken,”
And it would have been so easy for him to just get rid of us,
Throw us away, but he wouldn’t have it,
He let us stay.
He said,
“If you Love me, you have to Love my rag dolls too”
So he created a place where we could be made new,
Yes, There really is such a place,
It’s called the cross.
The cross is where we rag dolls can go,
To be put back together,
And washed whiter than snow.
It’s where God can make us better than before,
And give us true value and so much more.
The world will say you’re ugly,
And tear at you time and time again,
But the Lord doesn’t care, He thinks you’re beautifully broken.
“If you love me, you must Love my rag dolls too”
And that’s what we rag dolls have been called to do.
By Nicole L. Lawrence
When I was a kid I had a lot of toys that came and went,
But Molly, she was different,
I remember that Christmas when I was 8,
That bright and snowy morning was fate,
Molly became my Best Friend.
Wherever I went Molly came too,
And leaving her behind was the hardest thing to do,
Yep, she was there through it all,
Cause to me she wasn’t just any doll,
At dinner I would slip her a few bites,
And at bed time she was by my side every night,
Sometimes I would even sneak her in the bath,
She was there for every tear, and every laugh.
I loved that doll more than any child could,
But my love for her was too strong for her own good,
Cause if you think your life is hard,
Try being Molly, now that’s tough,
She was dragged through the mud,
And pushed off all kinds of stuff,
Her arm fell off, her hair was cut,
She was covered in dirt, and who knows what?
If that doll could talk it would yell,
She became so invaluable not even Ebay could sell,
But it didn’t matter to me,
I loved her just as much as I had that Christmas morning.
One day my Mom said we had to throw her away,
But I wouldn’t have it, she had to stay,
I said Mom
“If you love me, you have to love Molly too”
She smiled and said, “There must be something we can do”
And sure enough we packed Molly Up,
And shipped her to the doll hospital,
Yes, There really is such a place.
And when she came back, she was better than before,
She was returned her value, and was beautiful once more.
But it didn’t make a difference, I didn’t really care,
Cause to me what made her beautiful,
Were the moments that we shared.
I don’t tell this story so we can all simultaneously go “Awe”,
Or in other cases put you to sleep,
I tell this story because we’re all Molly…we’re rag dolls.
We once were beautiful and brand new,
But now torn and ripped by what life’s put us through,
We’ve been hurt by the ones we love most of all,
And cause our own raggedness by our sins and falls.
But God, the two best words in the Bible,
BUT GOD loves us even in our brokenness,
Even when the world sees us as nothing,
He we’re the most valuable.
And even when we sin against him,
He still loves us.
And there came a time when God looked at us and thought,
“They’re so ugly and broken,”
And it would have been so easy for him to just get rid of us,
Throw us away, but he wouldn’t have it,
He let us stay.
He said,
“If you Love me, you have to Love my rag dolls too”
So he created a place where we could be made new,
Yes, There really is such a place,
It’s called the cross.
The cross is where we rag dolls can go,
To be put back together,
And washed whiter than snow.
It’s where God can make us better than before,
And give us true value and so much more.
The world will say you’re ugly,
And tear at you time and time again,
But the Lord doesn’t care, He thinks you’re beautifully broken.
“If you love me, you must Love my rag dolls too”
And that’s what we rag dolls have been called to do.
Girly Girl
By Nicole L. Lawrence
* Based off the poem Manly Man By Bradley Hathaway *
Watch me flip my long blonde hair, pretty green eyes,
And YES I have on mascara,
Eye shadow, skinny figure, snap in a Z,
Hips sway when I walk, accessorize any outfit,
I am a Girly Girl.
Within this curvy frame,
Obviously lies chest with a heart
That beats to the drum of Justin Bieber,
That his wild over obsessive fans have yet to grasp.
If danger lurks about, I’ll have an outfit to seek it out,
If that adventure abounds, I will NOT be found,
(Cause I might break a nail).
And if I’m gonna sweat,
You gotta bet it’s to burn off carbs,
Cause I am a Girly Girl.
Cause I brush my hair, and power my noise,
And when you look this good you gotta strike a pose,
I can get whatever I want, just by batting my eyes,
(Accept that one time I wanted a pony).
I giggle, flirt, wink, when a guy’s near by,
Deny me Chocolate and I will punch you in the eye!
I am a Girly Girl, or am I?
Being the king of kings daughter
Doesn’t mean I can act like a princess,
It requires serving others first with love, tears, and sweat,
It’s not all about the sugar and fluff,
But rejoicing in the Lord when times are tough, like Mary.
I wanna be a women who finds favor with the Lord,
Cause eternal life with him is the greatest reward,
And choosing what’s right is doing what’s hard,
Even though it isn’t pretty to go the extra yard,
Surely I am a Girly Girl.
When it comes to God’s people
I want to teach them, serve them, and love them,
And not just the boys either,
Although I am waiting for that special one,
Not a knight in shinning armor,
But humble and seeks to be my equal,
He will love God more than he could ever love me,
And I will submit to him, respect him, trust him,
I will love him as I love myself,
And we will unite together as one flesh,
And share with each other,
And laugh and cry through the days of our lives,
Our beauty will be passed down to our children,
And each of them will know they are well loved,
And fearfully made in God’s image.
You may be thinking while biting your lip,
“That’s not womanhood, shut up and sit”,
But ask any fear person in these pews,
What I have to say is honest and true,
Cause I am a Girly Girl.
By Nicole L. Lawrence
* Based off the poem Manly Man By Bradley Hathaway *
Watch me flip my long blonde hair, pretty green eyes,
And YES I have on mascara,
Eye shadow, skinny figure, snap in a Z,
Hips sway when I walk, accessorize any outfit,
I am a Girly Girl.
Within this curvy frame,
Obviously lies chest with a heart
That beats to the drum of Justin Bieber,
That his wild over obsessive fans have yet to grasp.
If danger lurks about, I’ll have an outfit to seek it out,
If that adventure abounds, I will NOT be found,
(Cause I might break a nail).
And if I’m gonna sweat,
You gotta bet it’s to burn off carbs,
Cause I am a Girly Girl.
Cause I brush my hair, and power my noise,
And when you look this good you gotta strike a pose,
I can get whatever I want, just by batting my eyes,
(Accept that one time I wanted a pony).
I giggle, flirt, wink, when a guy’s near by,
Deny me Chocolate and I will punch you in the eye!
I am a Girly Girl, or am I?
Being the king of kings daughter
Doesn’t mean I can act like a princess,
It requires serving others first with love, tears, and sweat,
It’s not all about the sugar and fluff,
But rejoicing in the Lord when times are tough, like Mary.
I wanna be a women who finds favor with the Lord,
Cause eternal life with him is the greatest reward,
And choosing what’s right is doing what’s hard,
Even though it isn’t pretty to go the extra yard,
Surely I am a Girly Girl.
When it comes to God’s people
I want to teach them, serve them, and love them,
And not just the boys either,
Although I am waiting for that special one,
Not a knight in shinning armor,
But humble and seeks to be my equal,
He will love God more than he could ever love me,
And I will submit to him, respect him, trust him,
I will love him as I love myself,
And we will unite together as one flesh,
And share with each other,
And laugh and cry through the days of our lives,
Our beauty will be passed down to our children,
And each of them will know they are well loved,
And fearfully made in God’s image.
You may be thinking while biting your lip,
“That’s not womanhood, shut up and sit”,
But ask any fear person in these pews,
What I have to say is honest and true,
Cause I am a Girly Girl.
